Grandparents Exclusive

I promise I have a great deal to say - I am just still getting into the groove of being a mama of 2! Remember when you all told me not to panic about having two kids? Well, you were wrong!! lol.  I know it will all be okay and technically, I am probably not even at the hard part yet - but I already feel it.  It mostly hits me after a sleepless night where Wes is up every other hour and then - surprise, Isaiah wakes up at 7am ready to go.  That's when I feel like my tank is half full.  Yesterday, after one such night, my tank ran out at about 4:30pm when I found myself waking up with drool trickling down the side of my mouth, Wesley dangling awkwardly from my breast and Isaiah jumping on the couch beside us.  I don't remember falling asleep and I promise I don't drool.  Anyway - the hubby and I agreed that I will stay in bed all day today and emerge only to go have some me-time outside of the house.  Initially, I had ambitious plans of going to the Y and taking an afternoon Cardio class.  Now, I am thinking of sitting in a Starbucks and staring out the window.  Well look at that - I said more than I thought I would - I needed that.  Look how worried I look in that picture! I am constantly wondering if I am doing enough - for either of them.  I want to make sure they both feel loved and happy - not like they have a narcoleptic drooling Mama.

Sigh.

Onto my grandparents (and anyone else that loves my babies) update - Wes is growing so fast! He is soo greedy and he is already growing out of his 0-3months clothes.  He gave me his first purposeful non-gas induced smile on Tuesday.  I was kissing him and mimicking his coos and a huge toothless grin spread across his little brown face.  My heart melted!  Now I spend most of my time trying to get that smile again and I have been pretty successful - especially right after feedings when I am kissing his little face.  Isaiah got a smile when he was playing with Wes's feet and giggling.  I have a feeling they are going to be really close.  Wes is also holding his head up really well - he also likes to stiffen up like he is trying to stand.  I have to remind him constantly he is only 7 weeks old.  Here are a couple of pictures of my little walnut: